By the Way....

Everyone welcome my husband to my blog. He has become a reader in the last couple of days. Just thought you all might like to know...it's not just us girls (and Jon) anymore! ha

No updates. Nothing new around here.

OH WAIT....I do have something...
I HAVE A FRIEND!!!!

Her name is Tanya and she works with me at The Keys and we have been hangin out a little bit lately. She's awesome and I love her! We have bonded really quickly...she's great! Finally...a friend! =)

I know your all dying to see my hair...I did take a couple pics BUT I dont like them...so once again...you'll have to wait! Sorry....

4:15 on Sunday Morning....

Got home from work a little while ago... and I'm pretty tired. But this is about the only time of day that I get to myself... so I have to use it wisely. Am I crazy for wanting more me time? Sometimes the people around me make me feel that way. I'm a very independant person... And I love some Cacey time... doesn't seem like there's much of that these days....

Work was finally GREAT this weekend! We were super busy Friday and Saturday night and I made about $350 total.....I needed that! We had some awesome piano players and the crowd stayed and tipped well. It was fun. I'm sad to see the weekend fly by so fast!

I am off tomorrow...and I dread it. And I hate that too. Why do I like working more than I like being at home relaxing??? I think I know why... but I'll keep that under wraps for now....

The spa was AMAZING!!! Well, to tell you the truth... I have never really enjoyed a massage before. They're always nice while your getting them and then when it's over... I can barely remember having one. So this time I did the deep tissue...thinking I was gonna come out of there feeling like a million bucks. And I didn't really. I was sleepy. It relaxed me. But I think that's the last time I am going to pay (or let someone else pay) for a professional massage. They just don't do it for me I don't guess. But I did really enjoy it. I got my nails and toes done too. Got to read some of my book I haven't had time to read.... so it was a good day.

I can NOT WAIT to come home. You people have NO idea how bad I need it! ha

Well... guess it's time to hit the sack..... so until next time.... Nite!

Poor Timing.....

Isn't it funny that when you get to the point where you finally start to feel comfortable... the rug gets pulled and you have to start all over again?? HA... nothing bad happened... just Christmas...

We were finally getting to a place where we felt comfortable financially... and then Christmas happened and we got each other way too much stuff... which depleted our bank accounts. And I totally forgot about this time of year being the WORST to make any money in the service industry. We even sold the truck which should have given us more.... but the water and electric bill went up and we added another bill.... so didn't make a difference.

We're just fine as long as we're careful... but I have scheduled off 2 weeks from work the first of February to come home and now I'm not so sure it's possible. I need it... for my own sanity... but I don't know if financially I will be able to. I'm barely making 200 bucks a week..... and that's our food and "everything but bills" money.

I hate this time of year, every year. I always forget about it so it always sneaks up on me.... I did my budget tonight... which is why I'm so bummed. I'm sure I will come up with some plan and make it all okay.... but today... I'm just a little stressed. I ALWAYS DO THIS.... and I have never had to go hungry so I think I can manage......

On a happier note.......... I got my hair cut and colored today. Geez my roots looked terrible! I loved the girl I went to.... I did the same thing with the color but I chopped quite a bit off.... I'm not sure if I like it yet cuz I haven't got to do what I would do with it.... So give me a few days and I will post some pics! And tomorrow is my DAY AT THE SPA......... what good timing!!! I go at 9 to get a deep tissue massage, followed by a manicure, then a pedicure, and then some lunch! I can't even wait! After that I'm gonna go shopping with my friend Tanya to get her a birthday outfit for this weekend.... and then I will come home and nap and then work at night.... and pray for big tippers!!!!

So I'm gonna take out the trash and go shave my legs so those people won't get grossed out tomorrow! ha I will let you know how my day goes tomorrow!

Back from my internet hiatus!!!!

This will be a short update due to the fact that I will only be alone for about 20 more minutes.... but I will try and fill you in....

I have had NO alone time for the last 3 weeks. I don't like to be on the computer when he is home... this is my private journal time....I don't like having someone reading over my shoulder.... you understand, I'm sure....

Anyway.... the last few weeks have been pretty good. And other than Christmas, pretty normal. Work is work.... been slower than I would like. But it's that time of year. Still working both jobs. Wish the money was better but we're surviving!

Christmas was wonderful around here! We both got each other more than enough stuff. And mom sent us a package with lots of goodies!!! His family sent us some money and my dad sent us a gift card for Omaha Steaks, which should be arriving today.... SO we made out like bandits! My favorite present I get to experience Thursday and Friday. He got me a package to the spa around here.... I get my hair done, a deep tissue massage, manicure, pedicure, and a lunch! I get my hair done on Thursday (gonna do something completely different I think) and I get the rest on Friday..........I CANT WAIT! He got me a very pretty necklace too.... I was pleased with all of my gifts...very thankful!

His schedule completely changed.... so now we're basically on opposite schedules. He gets home just about time for me to go to work. So we're working on that adjustment. Annabell got fixed. She didn't follow any of the doctors orders... but she healed very nicely! We were supposed to keep her still and not jump for 10 days....... yeah..........that didn't last past day 1. But she had her re check yesterday and everything looks perfect.... so she's doing well.

I got all my Christmas decorations taken down and my house cleaned. Everything looks pretty good around here. I'm pleased. I'm in the process of trying to think about what I want to do with my adulthood. I am not going to want to bar tend forever.... although the fast cash is very addicting.... but my body is only going to allow me to do this full time for so much longer......... so I need to come up with a plan.... a new job... a career. I have NO IDEA what I want to do when I grow up. My husband has a new plan everyday for himself. He has about 30 different things that he would love to do.........and changes his mind everyday. I can't think of one dang thing to do. I want to do something that makes me happy. That I will be good at. And make a decent income. Something with children, maybe special needs children.... little children (pre K)......... I dunno.... Just thinking about it....

Announcement............
I am coming home February 2nd thru February 12th. So make plans to see me! I only have set plans right now for Saturday night (my sister's thing)......... so get with me, let's plan something! And I don't have a set place to stay.... which is fine with me... so prepare yourself to find me sleeping on your couch a couple nights! ha

OKay........... I will try and get more regular with this now! And you other bloggers have not been blogging either.............. you know who you are!!! lol

Some questions I have for God....

I have been preparing a mental list in my head since I became a true follower of Christ to ask him when I finally stand before him some day.... I am adding another question to my list today.

Why does tragedy always hit the hardest around the holidays? Around Christmas to be exact. It was the day he was born, so you would think, logically, that the best things in your life would happen around December 25th, every single year. So why is it the exact opposite?

I got a call from my first real boyfriend tonight telling me that his grandma had a heart attack on Wednesday and didn't make it. She was in incredible lady that dealt with lots of illness for as long as I knew her. But she was a true fighter and always there when anyone needed her. The rock of her family. And now she's gone and I am so sad for that family. I know what it's like to lose a family member during the holidays....seems like just last year that it was my Aunt Cathy. I'm sure he has a very good reason, but I can't wait to hear it.

Another question.....
Why do children have to suffer?
Innocent little babies.... why? Why don't they get a chance?

Why is it that the women that don't need or want children have 10.... but the families that want children more than life itself.... can't have them?

I have several more but I think I will keep those between myself and my God.

I just needed to vent. I hurt for those that hurt and today I am sad.

Couple Pictures

My Christmas tree with all the presents underneath!

Here is my at Joe's Crab Shack last Sunday... YUM!
This is the one we sent with the Christmas cards.... aren't we just precious?

I thought my face looked too fat in this one... weird

This was my practice pic because we used the self timer on the camera.... this is normal activity for those 2.......

Christmas Time!!!!

Today is a Friday and the first one I have had off since I started working here. I haven't done much because I feel like crap. My head feels like it weighs 100 pounds and I am feeling low on energy. I'M NOT ALLOWED TO GET SICK. So, it's just allergies....right? Isn't it interesting that even if you blow your nose 10 times in a row, you still have a nose full of snot? Weird.

I did get out and go to lunch with Jaci ( the one that helped me cook Thanksgiving...). She's moving from Georgia back home to Osh Kosh, Wisconsin (or Minnesota....I get the 2 confused). But she stopped thru here today to pick up her boyfriend, Kyle, to take with her. So we went and ate Mexican for lunch. I'm gonna miss her....she's the closest thing I have had to a real friend since I have been here. It's interesting that I am working 2 jobs and I have met a bunch of people.... but no one "friend worthy" yet. They're all pretty cool to hang with and talk to at work, but no one to hang out with still. Probably resulting in my irritation with the no space I'm getting.

Anyway... things are moving right along around here. Today is the husband's last day of work until January 5th. I'm not sure how I feel about that. Actually, I do know. I'm not real happy about it and I feel like a selfish brat for feeling that way. When he is home.... he wants to spend every waking ( and sleeping ) moment with me. Shouldn't I want that? Aren't there a million wives out there that crave that kind of attention from their husbands? I work and I come home. So when I'm home is the only time I'm not working. So sometimes (well, most of the time) I like to just hang out, by myself, and do whatever. He waits up for me every night (even when he has formation at 5:45 in the morning, and then misses it because he refuses to go to bed without me....and I need time to unwind...like this morning).......... When I wake up, he's awake...bright eyed and bushy tailed. When he finally leaves for work, it's time for me to get ready and go to work. So, as a result, I'm not very nice to him. I ask for space and he gets mad. I don't and he gets mad. Is it wrong to just wish that he had a hobby so I could miss him a little and be excited when he is around me??? I should be thankful for this time because this time next year, I may not have him around.... How can I change the way I feel about this? I know it hurts his feelings because he is EXTREMELY lovey dovey.........and I am just about as extreme the other side as you can get........... Poor guy....I just don't know what to do. I'm not getting enough time for myself.... but in his eyes, he thinks I get all the time in the world.

Anyway... Christmas is in a few days, and I'm ready. Then New Years and I will be working. And then I am taking a very much needed trip home for about 10 days. Maybe after that I will be rejuvenated and feel better??!!!

Since I started this, I have felt increasingly more sick....... my eyeballs hurt now........ wonderful!

Look at ALL THOSE PRESENTS!!!!

I am so proud of myself...I had a very good day yesterday... accomplished!!!!

I got up early, cleaned my house, took Tony's dry cleaning to the cleaners, did his Christmas shopping, did our grocery shopping, came home and wrapped all his presents ( the green and red stripes you see, is duct tape!!! hahahha...I'm worried he'll snoop so I took Mom's advice for extra precaution!!!), and got ready for work, went to work, waited on a party of 70, made $150, and got up at 8:30 this morning to be at work by 10, oh and I also packed a lunch!!.............and I'm actually not tired! That's pretty awesome for me!!

But I do have to cut this short or I will be late for work!....Just wanted u to see my presents... Aunt C, you'll have to talk to me or mom to find out what the presents are...you'll crack up.... I cant post on here...cuz of Mr. Snoop!

No time for me............

I am adjusting to everything here. I think I about have it all figured out. Everything except for time for myself. All by myself. I thought that only happened when you had children. I have a husband and I dog...that's it. I also have 2 jobs. So I can see how that would make it a little hard. But when not at work, I am home and so is the rest of my family. Sometimes I just want to sit and play on the computer or watch what I want to watch on the tv or do what I wanna do.... but I get about 3 whole hours a week to spend with myself. It seems very unfair. Especially after being told that I don't do anything. We really need to work on the whole appreciating each other thing.....

So now, I have about 3 hours (my one-week limit) to myself because the husband has people wanting to look at the truck we have for sale....... So I have this time to do what I want. And Im trying to spend it as wisely as possible............. I need to do some Christmas shopping for Tony, I need to write and send out some Christmas cards, I could fold some laundry, I could straighten up what needs it, .....................I could do a lot of things.... but what I really want to do right now is................................. NOTHING AT ALL!

So that's what I'm gonna do. I will make today my day to myself (well, I have to be at work at 5 so for the next 3 and a half hours...), and get busy on the rest of the stuff by tomorrow! What a superb idea I have! ha

Going to attempt at an update......

Jessica informed me today that she hasn't received an update because she hasn't had her phone for a while and I haven't written here in a little while. I truly have been busy. Had lots going on and when I didn't have a lot going on I have been trying to spend time with the husband. I try not to write when he is around.... but I'm breaking that rule tonight.... So here we go.

Everything has been going pretty good around here. Work has been keeping me busy and I am finally starting to get it all in good order. I like it. Annabell has been doing very good on potty training. Been pretty routine around here.

Of course my eyes would be closed.... but here is Annabell loving on her mommy!!!!

Here is Annabell and her daddy looking all sweet together!!!!

Here she is getting all clean and fresh smelling. She doesn't like the bath so much but she deals!

Here she is helping me do laundry. Every time I do a load she is in the basket helping. She loves the warm clothes and the dryer sheets. She's so cute! The reason I am still sane! Such a good idea mom!!!

Here she is just being silly! HAHAHAHAHAHA...............remember how I told you that I accidentally gave Tony a black eye??? Well, here he is trying to keep it from swelling up! Little did I know at that time that he might be deserving it!!! hahah

This was the day after. It actually looked pretty bad about day 3. Was all swollen up top and black and blue all the way around. Now it's about a green and yellow color. hehe

Here is my BEAUTIFUL arrangement that I got from mom for Thanksgiving!!!! Turkey day would not have been successful without her! She e-mailed me step by step directions on how to do everything and it all turned out wonderfully!!!!!! I had about 7 people and the day went great! Unfortunately I don't have any pictures because my husband MIGHT have left my camera at his friends house the night before...........grrrrrrrrrrrr............. But the flowers made the table look lovely! They still look very pretty! And smell good too!!!

And here is a picture of me in my winter gear. No, I'm not getting fat.... it's the angle of the camera......... and my eye make up looks terrible.... but whatever..... here I am.

Here is my WONDERFUL Christmas tree that my elf sent me!!! Husband and I were able to find some really cheap decorations the day after Thanksgiving so we got to decorate it and we LOVE it!!! It looks soooo good! I am really really pleased with how it turned out!!!! Annabell likes it too.... but we're trying to teach her not to!!! lol

Here are our stockings hanging above the fireplace.... notice that the dog has the biggest one!!! What the crap is that??? And I don't even really like ours but the PX didn't have much to offer. We went to Wal Mart yesterday and found some that were awesome.... but they'll have to wait for next year! Mine just better be stocked over full!!! Hint Hint!!!! =)

Okay, let me explain. I put this one up on Sunday night when I was pretty upset about some stuff. So it was very hastily done! Its a little 2 ft fiber optic tree and looks really good in the dark.... but not so good in this picture! I have made some adjustments since this picture was made.... but I like it still!!!!

OKay, that's all I have for you. Hopefully this blog will make up for my lack of blogging lately! I work everyday this week and a double on Saturday so I will be super busy this week as well! Just goin through the motions. Hope everyone is having a happy holiday season.......... I am going to try and send Christmas cards out this weekend sometime.... but seeing as how I STILL haven't done my thank you cards from my shower.....let's just see how well that goes!!!!! ha