Well, I asked for it....

OKay, now I feel like I'm too busy....

Jaci (one of Tony's friend's girlfriend who is here for the week) and I went shopping today and got all of our Thanksgiving stuff together. I got a turkey in a bag that you can cook from frozen that's already seasoned and all.... and I'm glad I did.

So while shopping today, both of my jobs called me. They both asked if I could work tonight. And I told them both no. But The Keys did tell me that she needed me Friday, and Im already on the schedule for Huske on Friday so I told her I couldn't. And she tried to give me a hard time. Telling me that she should be my priority because that was my first job. And I agree.... but she honestly can not expect me to be available whenever she says so. Huske gives me a schedule 2 weeks in advance....she never gives me one!!!! Anyway..... she just called me back (it's 8:30) to ask if I can work tomorrow night. I said yes.... only because I feel bad for leaving her short handed, although it's 100% her fault. So that means....I work at Huske at 10 and have to be at the Keys at 6. And have to cook Thursday.................... UGH.............
I'm thinking this might be my last weekend at The Keys. I have made myself more than available to her, whenever she needed. If she's not willing to repay the favor then she will lose. I have a pretty good feeling that I will make more money at the other place. I just hate that I really started liking the people there and the bartending. Why can't she just be happy with Saturday nights?? That's all she wanted to give me at first... Hopefully we will be able to have a conversation this weekend and one way or the other, we will come to an agreement....or not.

I think I am going to make dinner ready more around 4 on Thursday....that way I dont have to wake up at the crack of dawn and I can take my time getting stuff ready. I really should try and get organized tonight.... see what I can do tonight.... but I just don't have the energy. I'm feeling stressed about jobs and food. It will all come together... but I hate thinking about it all. I hate feeling like someone is upset with me for doing what I have to do. I know it is her fault.... but somehow I still feel like I need to fix it.... I want to work Mon-Fri at Huske and Sat at Keys. But she thinks I should leave Fri and Sat open for her.... whether she may need me or not.... what am I supposed to do? I already know....I just hate confrontational conversations. And I think we are going to have one.

Anyway....seems like I finally have a lot on my plate. This is what I wanted. Now if I can just balance it all out....life will be good!
Wed- Huske 10-4 Keys 6-3:30
Thurs-Happy Turkey Day
Fri- Huske 6-3
Sat- Keys 6-3
Sun- Breathe
Mon-start all over again!!!!


On another note. Tony and I were play fighting last night and I accidently punched him in the eye which resulted in a black eye!!!! Oopsie!!!! I really really didn't mean to, but it's pretty funny all the same. I took a pic....will post along with the other 10 pics I need to post on a later date. (when I get around to it!!)

It was so much easier to blog before when I had nothing going on. Now that I do.... it's tough.....

Mumbo Jumbo

Just living life around here these days....

Lets see if I can update you on a few things....

Annabell is doing well. She's getting big and her personality is coming out. She's starting to bark a little. She got a bath and got her ears all cleaned out a few days ago. She loves to help doing laundry. She's obsessed with dryer sheets. She's cute and we love her. Potty training is still coming along. Still not perfect.... but she is only 4 months old... so I think she's right on track.

Husband is doing what he does. Which might be driving me crazy. We had a great day yesterday. Went to church and then to eat and watch Twilight. The weekends are long for me. We're just so different on some subjects so it's very hard for me to understand him. But I love him just the same.

My work.... going great actually. I trained at Huske last Thursday. I really think I will like it there. I served at Keys on Friday and bartended on Saturday and actually really enjoyed myself both nights. Started to feel like I belong there and all the people are really nice. My money was right on and I made some money too. I like it there.... I work today at 6 at Huske to train again. I kinda wanted not to start this week so I could concentrate on Thanksgiving.... but today won't hurt anything. I'm gonna try and see if today can be the only day until next week. I think I have to work at The Keys on Wednesday night....apparently it's a very busy night around here. Hopefully I will get to balance out the 2 in the next couple weeks and get that all straightened out.

I got up and cleaned my house today from top to bottom. Still doing some laundry. I love a clean house. I can't wait to put some Christmas stuff up on Friday. I have a perfect place for my tree!!! I'm gonna try and get a few decorations this week to put on it....just some balls. I like it simple. I got a star and come inedible candy canes for it.... (Tony doesn't like that you can't eat them... I think it's PERFECT!!!) haha

I got my list for food together today. Now just waiting for an e-mail from mom telling me what to buy and how to put it all together! Not sure what I would do without her.

Anyway... not much time I have to myself so I'm gonna go and enjoy it. I will try and update again sometime this week

I got another job!!!

I went in for my interview today at Huske Hardware. It's more of a restaurant than a bar. But turns into a nightclub atmosphere on Friday and Saturday nights. All of this I am comfortable with. So I had an interview and I was really impressed with the place and with the manager I interviewed with. I think the feeling was mutual. So I go in tomorrow to train for a few hours, just to make sure I like it and they like me. And then if all goes well, I have to go get a background check. Apparently in NC you can't sell alcohol for 3 years after getting a felony! Strange liquor laws they have here. Anyway, I have nothing to worry about with the background check...so after they get those results....I get put on the schedule and start making money! I'm going to keep my job at The Keys for now....just tell her that I can only work Saturday nights like normal and I gave open availability to Huske. I think I will like it.

I finished New Moon last night. And I have read the first chapter of Eclipse. I am trying to pace myself. Tonight I need to at least start making my Turkey Day list. And Annabell stinks and has a dirty ear that I need to take care of. I also need to read over my information for Huske so I can be on point.

So, off to do some chores!!!

Good day!!!!

My day started out with an awesome phone call from my secret Christmas elf!!! =)

And so when I finally got up I got ready and went job hunting again.

I went to Husk Hardware....it's a bar and a restaurant....kinda upper class. It's downtown on the same road as The Keys.... the other place I work. Anyway, I went in and the bartender that was working also works at The Keys. He was super nice and before I could even get back to my car they called and I have an interview there tomorrow at 6. It's for a serving position which isn't ideal but anything will work now. And I'm pretty good at moving my way up the ladder pretty quickly! So I'm looking forward to that!

I also went to The Keys to get my book and see what I worked for this week. And I am serving on Friday night and bartending on Saturday. If I get the other job then I will stay at The Keys on Saturdays and leave the other nights open for Husk. And who knows.....I might make enough at Husk's to just do that one. So we shall see!

So I got my book and on the way home I stopped by Wal Mart and picked up the next one... Eclipse. I was trying to find a picture of it but I cant. I figure I will either start on it tonight or tomorrow. Could only find it in hard back.... which is ok but the other 2 I have are soft. Oh well, who cares! I dont know what I will do when I finish all of these books....It will be a sad day! But Twilight the movie comes out this Friday....I hope my husband decides to take me to it! I made a deal that if he went to see it that I would go and see 007.....haha

Anyway...I cleaned house and got my chores done so now all I have to do is read and cook dinner in a few hours.
Things I do need to do:::: Send out my thank you cards from 2 months ago, get my Thanksgiving list together, give Annabell a bath, change my songs on my phone, and probably lots of other things....but it will all wait for me to do....So I will wait to do it!!! =)

Monday Monday Monday

Monday doesn't really mean much to me anymore. Except that it's when the husband goes back to work. Poor guy, the weekends just fly by for him. He's been so busy with work. They keep loading it on and making it really hard for him to get everything done. That on top of the fact that he's a procrastinator anyway.....he's having a tough time. But, all things considered, he's doing well and I'm proud of him. I don't say much about him on here and that's mostly because, well most of you know why..........But things with us are going well. Getting better everyday. I think we are about to figure each other out!!!

Miss Annabell is doing well too! She had an appt on Friday for more shots and she did very well. The only part she hated was when they took her temperature. She acted like they were trying to kill her.... it was pitiful. Makes me think that when it comes time for my children to get shots.... I may not be so tough in that department! She's getting so big. We are getting her spayed in about a month. They say she has to stay still for 10 days!!! WHAT??? That's not going to happen unless she has some serious drugs....I don't think I have ever seen anything move as fast as she does!!!! But we shall see!

My job. Is Frustrating. I did find out that it hasn't always been the way it is. Apparently there was a different manager there before that handled things differently, but quit about a month ago. So now there is never a schedule posted, you call in on Tuesday to find out if you work Tuesday....or any other day that week. Makes it very difficult to plan. Or, you get a call less than 2 hours ahead of time to be there. And for 2 nights in a row this weekend, Friday and Saturday, my cash drawer was over 40 dollars under............... THAT HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I can't tell if it happens often and it's just overlooked or what. But it bothers me to my core. My reputation is important to me. And I'm not sure how to feel about it or how to deal with it. I do not think for a second that either night was my fault. And I am only getting one or 2 shifts a week and making about 300 bucks. I really like the people that work there...... a whole lot. They are super nice to me! But I need more shifts, I need organization, and I need stability, and trust....... it has potential to be exactly what I want, but for now....it just isn't! So this week I am going to go to a few places that I haven't been to put in applications, and a few places that I have been to check in on my applications. See if I can get another job... and either do both..... or just the one that is better.... I don't want to do this forever. But I do want to do it until I can get us fincancially ahead of the game. Get a good nest egg going so that I can find what I want without money being my motivation.

Tony and I joined our church, Manna, yesterday. We had a lunch at the church following our service where we got to meet all the church leaders. The guy that leads the music worship and his wife sat with us so we got to know them a bit. It felt really good to belong. We got some questions answered. And we are excited to get involved with a small group in the Spring and maybe volunteer to help with the youth group. We like it a lot!

We're actually toying with a new idea. My husband is a dreamer. He constantly has new ideas. He wants to own a business someday....and he changes his mind everyday about it. He is so opposite of me in that aspect. I live in the now and I think about the now. It is very very hard for me to think about things so far off in the future..........and when he talks about it....he talks about it like it will happen tomorrow. And he does hours of research. I love that about him, but I have a hard time keeping up.... or even wanting to keep up.... We have at least 4 years before we can do anything but the army.... It's funny to me how a major procrastinator can be so involved with what he wants for our future. Like I said, I like it.... but it's different for me. Anyway, we are toying with possibly caring for a few children in our own home and someday developing that into a daycare center. For me, this is a ways off. Like when this lease is up, we can get a house and turn a room into a room for 3 or 4 children and with that experience and word of mouth.... take that to the next level. It's a good idea and it could work.... but we will need to do lots of research and have a financial base to start off with. The husband, on the other hand, thinks that we could start this today............... And that just stresses me....I love him.... but he has such a hard time with reality. I think this is a good goal to move towards.... but good grief, not today!!! Today we have to worry about Thanksgiving and Christmas and money and French and Annabell..... let us get through some of the things we have before us and slowly get there............... I am a natural worrier....it just happens. And I wish I could figure out how to just let go of it all and give it to God to handle.....I keep hearing that that is what I am supposed to do........... but I have no idea how to go about it!!!!!! I have never been able to hand my issues to someone else to take care of and that conccept just baffles me........... but I am praying about it and trying to figure it out!

Since we wont be able to go anywhere for the holidays... we are going to try and do some stuff here and make it seem like home. I know the tradition is to decorate for Christmas on the day after Thanksgiving.... but we don't have any decorations and money is really really tight....so we may have to skip decorating all together. Which makes me sad but our budget doesn't budge much for extra stuff. I hope that my family understands that we won't be able to give gifts this year. We were going to try and get out pictures made and give them as gifts, but that's not an option..... we might even have to skip giving gifts to each other.... All of this is a little disappointing but it's not always going to be like this..... right?

Thanksgiving............ Looks like we (I) will be cooking Thanksgiving dinner this year. And looks like we will have about 10 people to cook for. Some of Tony's friends are staying here for Thanksgiving and a couple of their girlfriends and a few other friends are all staying. So Jaci (Tony's friend Kyle's girlfriend) is coming for the whole week and I think she might help me. But I have NO idea what to cook, how much of it to cook, how to cook it, in which order it will need to be cooked............. I am not a fan of Thanksgiving food...I dont like stuffing, or cranberry sauce, or any of it. So anyway.... I need some advice. Some recipies. Some step by step directions. How to shop....................................... hahahaha.... yeah, Im pretty much lost!

Anyway.... that's enough for now......

New Moon

This is the second book in the twilight series. The first book has the first chapter of this one at the end of it. And I read it and had to immediatly go to wal mart and get the second one!!! I haven't started it yet cuz I had to clean house and just relax for a while. Once I start reading, I ignore the real world! ha I think it drives Tony crazy, but I just tell him that now is a good time for you to study, he hates when I'm right!!!!

Miss Annabell is doing well. She's getting better with the pottying. Not perfect still, but better. She's starting to go by the door and everytime she does we take her right out... it works for the most part. My camera is currently out of batteries or I would post some new pics of her. All I need to do is go plug in my battery recharger....but somehow I keep forgetting. But I bought her a placemat today for her bowls and a new jacket. For some reason when she does pee inside, it's right by her food....so I got a placemat so maybe that will deter her somehow???? And the jacket I got so she wont get cold, and she'll be cute of course!!! It's a pink camo jacket. She doesn't like it much....but I do!!!!! She has a doc appt tomorrow for more shots....

Anyway....I need to shower and get started on my book before my hubby gets home!

Twilight by Stephanie Meyer

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This is the book I'm reading....well I just finished last night.

Before I moved my hairdresser Kristina had this book on her desk. She was talking about it with one of her coworkers and I asked about it. She told me it was the best book she had ever read and it was part of a 4 part series and she was already on the second one after 2 days of reading. She then told me that it was about a vampire. .................................I lost interest right there! It was also 500 pages long. I think I have some kind of anxiety when something seems too long, like a book or college.........if I fear that I wont complete it, I just don't even try so I won't have to fail. (That might be the first time I have admitted that to myself, kinda explains some things for me)............Anyhoo.....I am not into SciFi. I like real. I feel like I don't relate if it's not something that could happen to me.............Let me tell you something......

I think I might believe in Vampires now!!!!!!!!!! BAHAHAHAHA

The way this author writes captivates you and somehow makes you relate. It's not how I thought it would be. It's a normal story with normal people and somehow the vampires just ease into it. It's wonderful. I very rarely finish a book and I have never even attempted one so long. But I bought this book before I left Clarksville and just started reading on Saturday (I finally got tired of TV) and I finished it last night. That's record time for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited that there are still 3 more books to read. There's not a lot worse than when you get into a good book and then finish it and then nothing. It's like a piece of you just stopped and it's all you can think about for a while. So I got 3 more books to read and the movie on this book comes out on the 21st of this month! I can't wait!!!!!!!!!

This might be the next Harry Potter craze!!!!

So I suggest you go get this book.... and read it!

Follow Up....

Okay, I'm not sure what all I got to tell you on the last blog so this one may be repetitive but whatever....what else do you have to be doing...right?

So let me start from last Saturday. I got a call from they Keys, the piano bar downtown. I had filled out an application last week but they were only looking for a waitress so I didn't even think much about it. But Saturday I was lying in bed reading Twilight (my next blog will be about that book) and my phone rang at 5:45 pm. It was the owner from the keys asking if I was still interested in working. I still hadn't heard from anyone so I said sure. She then asked if I could come in that night...............WOW....um, okay! So I went in a little nervous cuz I had only been in there to fill out an application. Turns out to be a very cool place. Everyone there was really nice and warm and made me feel like family. I got to learn my way around the bar and by the time I felt comfortable, we got busy. And I didn't train anymore, I worked. Just kinda faked what I didn't know to make it seem like I did. It worked! (Fake it till you make it!!!) I ended up getting a full split so I made $175 on my first night! Pretty sweet! The place is a little on the unorganized side. Really laid back, maybe too laid back but I won't complain. The only thing I do have to complain about is that I think I may get only one or two shifts per week. Boo!

So yesterday Skip's (the place I really wanted) called to tell me to show up last night at 7 to train as a waitress. Cool.... I only have one shift at The Keys on Saturday so I can do that. I dont really want to waitress but I do need more that one or 2 shifts a week. So I agreed to come in at 7. Well.....at 4:30 The Keys called and they were in a jam and needed a bartender.... What to do??? What to do???
Here was my decision making process: I had already committed to Skip's that I would go train. But training meant a guaranteed NO money and I was training to waitress....ugh! And I knew he was only willing to give one or 2 shifts a week as well. And at The Keys, it would be slow, but I would have the place to myself and look good because I was called last minute and made myself available...and I would make more money.....so I took that. After telling the truth to Skip's they said I could come and train the next day.....then they called me back and said to forget it cuz I took another job and they didn't want someone who flip flopped. I wasn't sure if I did the right thing at first, but I think I just got a real good look at what my boss would be like there.... and I hate working for tyrants. So the way I see it, Skip's wasn't meant to be. And I accept that.

I made $10.00 last night at The Keys. I had one customer. But I made more than my sales. Sales were $7 and he tipped $10!!! So I only made $10 bucks but....I enjoyed myself. I can sit down, watch tv, smoke, and read my book. So I finished Twilight last night and got to leave at 10. I'm going to have to figure something out with the job thing, because I need about 3 or 4 shifts a week..... I'm going to hunt some more on Monday. Something good will happen.

We sold my washer and dryer. It was an apartment sized one. Put it on craigslist and it sold the first day for $300! So that helps out quite a bit! And Tony had a serious inquiry on his truck today so if we get that sold we will be in much better shape! We are currently selling his truck and my dirt bike....with those 2 things gone, I would only need to work one or 2 shifts a week. So keep your ears open for anyone looking for either of those....let me know if you need details.

What else could I tell you about??? Guess everything else is going pretty good. I get my new seat put in my car tomorrow. We don't have plans for this weekend. I have to work Saturday night and we have church on Sunday. And next week we are back on Tony's regular work schedule....(insert happy face) so I can get some ME time!

Next blog will be about the book I just read.... I encourage you ALL to go get it!

Got 9 Minutes.....

So Husband went back to work today after being up my behind for 4 days. I love him and I love space....so it's hard to regulate the 2. Especially when he starts the weekend by burning a big hole in my seat from a cigarette, in my new car! That poor car has had more trouble than the other 2 combined! Good news is, I can finally see the "real" Tony starting to come out. It always takes some time for him to normalize and it's finally getting there a little bit....I was starting to think I lost him all together... but patience prevailes again!



So I worked the other night at the Keys and I loved it. Just a real laid back place and I made decent money and I really have no complaints about it so far. Except for the way they schedule or lack there of scheduling.... You just kinda call on Tuesday's to see what you work for the week. And they apparently call you in 2 hours before they need you to come in....

And due to 2 phone calls during me typing this....I am now out of time and will finish this either when I get off tonight or get up tomorrow......

I Lied....

I didn't tell you all about my night last night and I don't really feel like blogging much right now.

Husband doesn't go back to work until Wednesday. And might be driving me bananas. I love him. Just still trying to get used to everything.

So once I get some ME time....I will blog.

So don't worry if it's not till Wednesday!

=)

Quit Update!

I got a job!!! And I started tonight.... HA! The lady called at 5:45 and asked if I could come in asap!!!! It's at a place called The Keys. A dueling piano bar.

I had a wonderful night and I made $175!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I will update you more tomorrow when I'm not so sleepy! But just wanted you to know the just of my new news....I promise I will give all the details tomorrow!

=)

Job Hunting Adventures

So I had my first interview today at Logans. Went in and had a good interview with the guy. I could tell he was impressed. But after we talked for a few minutes he told me that I could only expect 30 to 40 bucks per shift..........WHAT??? I might be spoiled or I might be a brat, but I am worth more than 30 bucks a day! I am over qualified for that....which I think he picked up on. He told me that he didn't think I would be happy there and considering my experience that I needed to try a few other places and he actually suggested some places to go. He told me that he thinks I would be an excellent addition to their team, but that I wouldn't be happy and we both would have wasted our time. I felt like it was an excellent interview and I admire him for being honest and not wasting my time... so that was that. I didn't really want to work at another restaurant anyway....

So I had another interview at Skip's. Skip's is my first choice for a job around here. This is why. I went in a few days before Tony got home because I thought Allison would be working. (she's the one I met and we have texted quite a bit...she's nice and my only "girlfriend" so far) But I got there and it was busy and she had already left. And it was really busy, no room at the bar. So I stood for a minute and was about to leave and a man came up to me and asked me if I was looking for someone....I told him my situation and he said she had left but that I should stay anyway. I declined and said that there was nowhere at the bar....so he walked up to the bar, cleared me a spot and got me a drink. And then introduced himself as part owner. Made me feel like home and like my business was important. I sat there and I fell in love with the place. It has an Irish feel to it and it's not too big and not too small and very clean and organized. The bartenders were able to free pour (which is not common around here, usually they have to use a shot glass to measure....that takes too much time!) and everyone seemed happy and not stuck up. At the time that I visited there I wasn't even thinking about working at a bar but now that I am, I knew it was where I wanted to be.

So I called Allyson yesterday and went in to fill out the app. And got an interview set up for 3 today. I had a wonderful 30 minute interview with Skip himself where he gave me his background and his vision for his establishment. He has military background and seemed to take those skills into this business. He started as a bartender back in his younger days and he's really down to earth. I liked him and I think he liked me too. He said he would be calling tomorrow to set up a meet and greet with his wife and he would like to bring me on. I'm sure he could tell how happy I was.... I might have told him too. Only thing I'm not too sure about is that he can't give but 2 or 3 shifts per week.... which I think I need more.... but it will work itself out.

Interestingly enough, while I was talking to him, the TreeHouse called. Also another bar (the other one that Allyson works at, where I originally met her) so when I got back to my phone I called back and set up an interview tonight at 6! So I might just have 2 jobs??!!! hahaha I'm ready.

Tony is finishing up his first week of learning French. It's tough. We knew it would be. But this job for me will be a good thing because French will consume Tony's life for the next 4 months. So I will need something to keep me busy as well as keep us fed.

Anyway.... other than the job hunting, not much else goin on. I'm excited about starting work. Still bummed about not going home for the holidays but I might just keep myself so busy that I miss the holidays all together! ha

2 Interviews Tomorrow!!!!

WOOHOO!!!!
I'm going to have a job by the first of the week.

Im excited about the second interview...it's at my first choice place called Skip's. It's where my only "friend" around here works. She's the only one I know and she's pretty cool so this will be good if I can get it!

I have about 4 places to go tomorrow too after my interviews so....

Cacey wont be broke for long! I already feel about 100 percent better just knowing that I have cards to deal. It's a good feeling.

Pray or keep your fingers crossed (whichever method works best for you) that I get the job at Skip's and they give me 4 or 5 shifts a week. That would be fabulous!

I'm a happy girl today! Yipee!!!

Better Humor Today...

So after I wrote that blog last night my head hurt so bad I could barely see. So I put the dog up and took half a xanex (no, I'm not a pill popper by any means, but that little half a pill is a wonder drug, it pulls the stress right out of you so you can just relax until you can pull your thoughts together...) and then went to bed. Before 9.

Woke up today at about 7 and went to the store and got a paper. Yesterday, I was not prepared to get a job by today. Yesterday, I was not willing to go wait tables or bartend again. Yesterday, I was going to wait until after Christmas and find what I wanted to do. But yesterday, I found out that I need to set all those thoughts aside, and get a job quickly. For my family. So I sucked it up and came up with a plan this morning.

Since the day I got out of high school I have pretty much worked 2 jobs at once or had one that took about 60 hours per week of my time. So basically for the past 5 years I have worked about 60 hours a week. Sometimes it was that much to support myself and sometimes it was that much because I just really like to work. I like to be responsible, I like to lead, I like to feel needed. And I like making money. There was a period of time where I worked at a daycare from 6am to 3pm, the Country Club from 4pm to 10pm, and a bar from 11pm to 3am.........all at the same time. I have no doubt in my ability to earn my own money and make my own living. It isn't a matter of "can I do it?", it's a matter of "will I do it?"

The main reason for not wanting to work until after Christmas was so we could visit our families during the holidays. Because Tony's money could support us. And so I could have a break from work and actually do what I wanted to do. But our current financial situation will only allow for our bills to be paid. And instead of looking at the as a negative, I need to be grateful that my husband can support our bills and we don't have to get rid of our cable or internet. So basically, I need to chip in and make enough for gas and food and extra.

So today I got in my car and I went. My objective was to go to as many restaurants and bars as I could find and put in as many applications as I needed to. First stop: Logans. Filled out the app and have an interview tomorrow at 11:15. Second stop: The Big Apple- filled out the app and had an interview while I was there and should hear back by the end of the week. And at 4 I have an interview at Skip's for a bartending spot. I went to a few other places but they either weren't open until later or weren't even giving out applications. So I have 3 choices as of now. If I don't hear anything positive by the end of the week, I will go out again on Monday to places like Applebees and Buffalo Wild Wings and a few others. But I have a pretty good feeling that I should be working by the weekend or end of the week!

It's all about the mind frame. Yesterday I had no intentions on working yet so I was really sad. Today, I got in my mind that I need a job like yesterday so now I am ready. I am so sad about not being able to come home for Thanksgiving or watching Sydney in her first play. And I'm sad about not meeting Tony's extended family and seeing Aunt C (yes we were planning to spend a day in Dallas) over Christmas. But I have to do what I can do to support my little family here. And it won't always be like this. I knew it was gonna be hard starting out, it's just hitting the reality that throws me for a loop. But work will be good for me. I love to work. And I know I'm great at the industry I am applying for. Who knows? Maybe I will be a manager before long??

Anyway, I will give you an update as I hear anything.... I am feeling better today. Just needed a day to recoop.......

U. G. H.

I just sat down and did our budget for the first time on paper. Organized it and figured out exactly what we have to pay and when.

And I guess when we talked about it before maybe we left some stuff out, cuz we thought we were going to be okay.

But we're not.

We thought we could do it on Tony's money alone, at least until after Christmas, but we can't.

If we did, we would have $48 left over for the month. And I didn't budget in food or gas or dog food or ANYTHING but bills. And only on the minimums.

So, now I have a headache.

And I'm sad because this means we wont be going to Tennessee for Thanksgiving, like we talked about the other day...which gave me lots of excitement. Or Texas for Christmas.

Guess I'm going to find a waitress job tomorrow.

When did I become an adult and how can I make it stop?

He's Home!!!

He made it...with good news too! We got to spend the weekend together and he had to be back at work this morning. He's still so tired and not back to normal....but it will come. He has eaten all but 3 of those cupcakes too! haha Oh and almost all of the soup. Too Funny!

We decided at like 9 on Friday that we were going to dress up and go out for Halloween. We had a blast!

The rest of the weekend we just relaxed and hung out. Tony slept a lot. Today I need to clean up and get a LOT of laundy done and get some bills organized for paying before he gets home. We are currently looking for a cheap desk to put in the spare room to set him up an office for studying. We looked at Wal Mart and the PX yesterday but didn't find anything we liked. He wants something that still looks nice and has lots of desk space and drawers in it too. (He's like a woman with some stuff....) So....Im gonna look online a little more today but if you have any suggestions, let me know!

Well, I'm off to be a housewife! Have a great Monday!