Monday Monday Monday

Monday doesn't really mean much to me anymore. Except that it's when the husband goes back to work. Poor guy, the weekends just fly by for him. He's been so busy with work. They keep loading it on and making it really hard for him to get everything done. That on top of the fact that he's a procrastinator anyway.....he's having a tough time. But, all things considered, he's doing well and I'm proud of him. I don't say much about him on here and that's mostly because, well most of you know why..........But things with us are going well. Getting better everyday. I think we are about to figure each other out!!!

Miss Annabell is doing well too! She had an appt on Friday for more shots and she did very well. The only part she hated was when they took her temperature. She acted like they were trying to kill her.... it was pitiful. Makes me think that when it comes time for my children to get shots.... I may not be so tough in that department! She's getting so big. We are getting her spayed in about a month. They say she has to stay still for 10 days!!! WHAT??? That's not going to happen unless she has some serious drugs....I don't think I have ever seen anything move as fast as she does!!!! But we shall see!

My job. Is Frustrating. I did find out that it hasn't always been the way it is. Apparently there was a different manager there before that handled things differently, but quit about a month ago. So now there is never a schedule posted, you call in on Tuesday to find out if you work Tuesday....or any other day that week. Makes it very difficult to plan. Or, you get a call less than 2 hours ahead of time to be there. And for 2 nights in a row this weekend, Friday and Saturday, my cash drawer was over 40 dollars under............... THAT HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I can't tell if it happens often and it's just overlooked or what. But it bothers me to my core. My reputation is important to me. And I'm not sure how to feel about it or how to deal with it. I do not think for a second that either night was my fault. And I am only getting one or 2 shifts a week and making about 300 bucks. I really like the people that work there...... a whole lot. They are super nice to me! But I need more shifts, I need organization, and I need stability, and trust....... it has potential to be exactly what I want, but for now....it just isn't! So this week I am going to go to a few places that I haven't been to put in applications, and a few places that I have been to check in on my applications. See if I can get another job... and either do both..... or just the one that is better.... I don't want to do this forever. But I do want to do it until I can get us fincancially ahead of the game. Get a good nest egg going so that I can find what I want without money being my motivation.

Tony and I joined our church, Manna, yesterday. We had a lunch at the church following our service where we got to meet all the church leaders. The guy that leads the music worship and his wife sat with us so we got to know them a bit. It felt really good to belong. We got some questions answered. And we are excited to get involved with a small group in the Spring and maybe volunteer to help with the youth group. We like it a lot!

We're actually toying with a new idea. My husband is a dreamer. He constantly has new ideas. He wants to own a business someday....and he changes his mind everyday about it. He is so opposite of me in that aspect. I live in the now and I think about the now. It is very very hard for me to think about things so far off in the future..........and when he talks about it....he talks about it like it will happen tomorrow. And he does hours of research. I love that about him, but I have a hard time keeping up.... or even wanting to keep up.... We have at least 4 years before we can do anything but the army.... It's funny to me how a major procrastinator can be so involved with what he wants for our future. Like I said, I like it.... but it's different for me. Anyway, we are toying with possibly caring for a few children in our own home and someday developing that into a daycare center. For me, this is a ways off. Like when this lease is up, we can get a house and turn a room into a room for 3 or 4 children and with that experience and word of mouth.... take that to the next level. It's a good idea and it could work.... but we will need to do lots of research and have a financial base to start off with. The husband, on the other hand, thinks that we could start this today............... And that just stresses me....I love him.... but he has such a hard time with reality. I think this is a good goal to move towards.... but good grief, not today!!! Today we have to worry about Thanksgiving and Christmas and money and French and Annabell..... let us get through some of the things we have before us and slowly get there............... I am a natural worrier....it just happens. And I wish I could figure out how to just let go of it all and give it to God to handle.....I keep hearing that that is what I am supposed to do........... but I have no idea how to go about it!!!!!! I have never been able to hand my issues to someone else to take care of and that conccept just baffles me........... but I am praying about it and trying to figure it out!

Since we wont be able to go anywhere for the holidays... we are going to try and do some stuff here and make it seem like home. I know the tradition is to decorate for Christmas on the day after Thanksgiving.... but we don't have any decorations and money is really really tight....so we may have to skip decorating all together. Which makes me sad but our budget doesn't budge much for extra stuff. I hope that my family understands that we won't be able to give gifts this year. We were going to try and get out pictures made and give them as gifts, but that's not an option..... we might even have to skip giving gifts to each other.... All of this is a little disappointing but it's not always going to be like this..... right?

Thanksgiving............ Looks like we (I) will be cooking Thanksgiving dinner this year. And looks like we will have about 10 people to cook for. Some of Tony's friends are staying here for Thanksgiving and a couple of their girlfriends and a few other friends are all staying. So Jaci (Tony's friend Kyle's girlfriend) is coming for the whole week and I think she might help me. But I have NO idea what to cook, how much of it to cook, how to cook it, in which order it will need to be cooked............. I am not a fan of Thanksgiving food...I dont like stuffing, or cranberry sauce, or any of it. So anyway.... I need some advice. Some recipies. Some step by step directions. How to shop....................................... hahahaha.... yeah, Im pretty much lost!

Anyway.... that's enough for now......